There seems to be an emptiness that surrounds me, containing me in its dark hold. I walk aimlessly, stumbling; I find it hard to concentrate on tomorrow. I feel as though I have nose-dived into the vastness of the deep, a black hole of despair.
How can I find my way out when I am too afraid to swim against the tide of society and when or where is the light I desperately seek to guide my way?
Sinking into quicksand, drowning in darkness, every one of my senses tainted by the world, and my heart cries, my eyes downcast with tears, no ear hears me screaming.
As in death, the world continues and barely casts a thought of the life that momentarily past, seeing themselves only, never looking into the deep for the souls that are lost and alone.
The way people make you feel is your responsibility. You can’t stop people from being who they are, but you can stop letting what they do affect you. You have the power to deflect every unwanted attack that comes your way. YOU have the power to absorb their energy or to deflect it. Walk away from unnecessary trouble. Value yourself more than the weight of their opinions. – ml malta
Isn’t it sad that we feel like we have to hide our brokenness. When the world looks right at you that the anxiety is so bad that you feel frozen, but yet somehow manage an awkward conversation. Then, following that awkward conversation, you over analyse every interaction and feel like a complete failure.
Who really knows or cares that within this soul my mind and body aren’t in control. I feel empty and alone. I feel misunderstood. What’s the point of talking when no one really listens anyway. I have to pick myself up every day after every awkward interaction and when I walk past a mirror and hate myself, I force myself to see the good. It isn’t easy.
Trauma stems from many thing’s and affects everyone differently. Most people don’t understand, know or want to know… or even care, if something happened to you. People are so busy living their lives and fighting their own demons to see past their nose. You could be that person to them, self involved and blind to someone else’s brokenness. We’re all human. Just know, that sometimes under that awkward weird person there is a human being just trying to make it through.
We are not here for any one person, or for any one reason. We are born to overcome, born to thrive and born, most of all to love.
Amidst life, there are tragedies and struggles, but there is also beauty and wonder in all the moment’s in between. The moment you take time out of your day to do something for someone else. That is kindness. That is love. That is why you feel good when you see someone smile.
Selfless act’s of genuine kindness. This is where we really learn to live. When we’re so busy finding creative way’s to give to the world around us we aren’t focused on the insignificant desires of the flesh, but concentrating on the requirements of the soul. This is where mankind flourishes, and this is what our souls yearn for.
When you’ve been hurt for a long time, many people struggle to know love, to trust and to give more of yourself. You hide behind the walls of your mind and your home. You hide behind other people, yet feel completely alone. You hope to be saved, but struggle to know who you are and if you even can be? Abuse is not your identity, neither is it of the victim. You didn’t ask to be treated less than you deserve, you didn’t sign up for this. Someone hurt you out of their hurt. You have probably hurt people out of your hurt. It doesn’t matter how good you think you are, you are human and broken people struggle to do normal. What is normal, no one really knows, social constructs aren’t always clear cut.
We have this idea that everyone else has their lives perfectly planned out, that they have the perfect families and relationships. That they have a bunch of friends and that they’re never lonely. That is not true, everyone has a journey, everyone has struggled along their journey. We often compare our journeys. Who has had it worse, had more trouble, fought more battles, who’s better? But why, it isn’t a competition? You exist for something greater. You exist to become more than a sum of your past experiences. You exist to be present NOW, to continue to grow and develop beyond your mind. You are not to be imprisoned – especially by the very person who should love you. Yourself.
Beyond everything and everybody you need to ground yourself in truth and in love. Not by the lies we have told ourselves to cope and not by the facades we create to fit in with the wrong crowds. Examine your motives for why you do what you, how you live, how you think, and how you treat other people including your family. Do you harm yourself unnecessarily? If you have unresolved resentment you will have problems with anger. If you feel unworthy and ugly, or just not good enough for anything or any body, you’ve probably been abused and rejected. If you lack confidence, you have probably been mocked and made ashamed. Look inward, find yourself. Don’t relive your hurts and get stuck in your thought’s.
Focus on the person inside. The one you know that is in there, hiding. The one that cries out to be seen. The one that aches to love and live freely. The one that isn’t afraid of being seen. When you find them, shine the light in the darkness and do whatever you can to set them free. Believe again. Have hope. You need to meet yourself and let go of the vein of existence you have held so tightly to. Fear is not your master, stand on the head of the snake with your heel and walk boldly into your future. You are strong, you’ve got this. Love you.
You are more than you think you can be. Don’t let life defeat you and push you down so low that you struggle to get back up! If you are on the ground it is time to realise your worth. You are amazing and can bounce back. No weapon formed against you can prosper. You may get kicked down but you are always strong enough to get back up and refuse to be punished for your mistakes or wrong judgement in people. You are more than a conquer. Today is a new day and you can start over right Now!
Standing in the shadows with my identity torn, wishing often for my life to be unborn. People tried to take me, wanted to break me, pull at my soul and shame me. Never knowing that I am stronger. I will always fight back.
I may be down, I may get knocked out, but rest assured I’ll bounce right back. You cannot destroy the good in me or God in me.
You cannot take my life and flesh and call it your own. I was a child but now I’ve grown.
I am stronger and I am older, forever bolder because of God in me, not you.
Please don’t take credit you do not deserve. I am free to live as I choose, I am free to rise and free to fall. My choices decide how I live and how I die. I will not give you credit for my demise. I am worthy. I will survive.
Created and born to stand for all, this life I chose is mine not yours. Your toxic delusions, I’ve buried them all.
On a rock I stand. My heart beats for my I AM. There is nothing in this world that can make me fall. Stop thinking you’ve had my all.
It is easy to self loathe, many do it daily without even thinking about it. How about we start loving ourselves and defining ourselves by the choices we make from now on. There is true strength and beauty within us all, that needs to be acknowledged and celebrated. ML
“Love yourself with more intensity than you did to hate.” ML Malta
“I’m very grateful for the way life has turned around. That bad people don’t stay and that good ones do. Though it has never been easy, I’m grateful for the life lessons, wisdom and understanding that comes from falling, because without it I would never have learnt to fly.” – ML Malta
We all make mistakes, especially when we’re in pain. You are more than the sum of a few stupid decisions. You are more than your mistakes. If people judge you by them, they really don’t know you. Your character should stand out and shine above the petty things. People will never know your truth, and who cares? Why should they? They certainly don’t need to! Who’s business is it to judge? I’m sure they’re not perfect. So why worry ourselves and destroy your own value and self worth because we’re so busy worrying about what other people think of us. Why worry about something we can’t change?! Move on.
People will never know what you’ve lived through. How hurt you’ve been, who, or how many hurt you, when, where or how long or often?! People will judge us on our moment’s of failure, but that failure isn’t an end, it’s a lesson. We grow, we learn and we mature. We’re constantly moving forward and developing. Don’t let the opinions of other’s – past or present, stop you from living your best life. You’re more than the opinions of sheep. We can’t allow pitfalls to leave us in the pit. You have to get up, shake off the dirt and get back on track. Forgive your naivety.
Start growing up and moving on with life. Life is with the living, the past is dead and buried. It is about time we heal. Leave it where it belongs – in the past. Take the lesson and forget the rest. Life is really too short to stress about silly mistakes. Please don’t waste another moment of your precious life harming yourself for being human.
You deserve to treat yourself with all the love and respect in the world. Follow your dreams and passion. Help people. Be kind to yourself and other’s. It is a start, and it definitely won’t be the end of a great life. Enjoy it. It’s your time to shine.
Future. I look to you hoping to see something new. To see a version of myself that would be appealing and attainable. In the microseconds of every day I see you becoming no more than yesterday. I cannot move beyond myself and these walls, yet, there is progress. There is more! A balance between what was, is, and what will be. Carefully orchestrated beyond my reach and significantly within and out of my control. What a whirlwind you are? Oh creation, a mystery and a mastery; not to be put under the microscope.
We laugh at others for amusement, while they struggle to catch a breath. Anxiety flood’s their bodies as they stand bravely, smiling and acting as if they did not notice. They put on a brave face, one of acceptance and resilience. The whisperers and passing glances infiltrate the mind while their heart skips a beat while fluttering so quickly it hurts. The pain is invisible and avoidable. The battle is internal with darts penetrating more than just our mere flesh. We are responsible for our actions and how we treat one another. People aren’t fair game nor is their livelihood. We can’t just take thing’s that don’t belong to us, including someone’s dignity and self worth. In this selfish world – we have to be better.
Find a reason to act in kindness. Learn empathy, seek love and understand how to give it. Instead of going with the crowd, go against it. Be thoughtful and considerate of others when everyone else walks by. Every day we get to choose what kind of people we are and who we want to become. Remember it is no harder nor easier than ever before, it is and has always been – a choice. A choice to live by our values than the lack of and the option to change them for the better. Good and bad, our choices do define us. Although it is inevitable for mistakes, we have the power to change and make better choices. Selfishness or selflessness. To be a better human we have to care enough to change.
Life is fleeting, but within it are millions of incremental moments that forge our eternity. We think the world is for our taking, including people. They are not, it is not. It is time to think about the choices we live by and how those moment’s define not just our existence, but the one in which we share.
If you are unable to define yourself or see yourself as you truly are, how can you shed the expectations of your peers? Be true to your heart, be true to yourself and to God. Be amazing, be wonderful, be kind, be courageous, loving and wise. Be silly, laugh and live life to the fullest. Help others, be charitable, but most of all be the you your 5 year old self hoped you grow up to be. Be the best version of yourself in a world that tries to make you the worst. You are worth fighting for. You are good enough. You are loved. It doesn’t matter how long you’ve walked down a dark road, you can always turn around and walk the other way. – M.L Malta
If you stood before God today, what would your excuse or reason be to have lived the life you had? Would you be confident that you lived every moment to its potential? Have you buried your dreams before you, yourself, are buried? What excuse do you believe? Every choice we make is one to either move you forward or to remain unchanged. Don’t let another year pass without living to your potential. Be everything you yearn to be. Life is too short to wait. Stop procrastinating and start becoming the person you desire to be, because when life ends there isn’t another opportunity to change it.
Sometimes, doing thing’s you don’t like to do assists other people. That’s called a sacrifice. Every day we sacrifice ourselves and our time, willingly or unwilling. If life was easy, it wouldn’t be a gift, because the things we cherish the most, are usually thing’s we have worked hardest for. Don’t forget, you define the value of your moments and sometimes just being there is your gift to someone in need. – ML Malta
I hope with all I am, that I will enter heaven. That the doors will open and angel’s will walk beside me as Jesus greets me and welcomes me home. I hope that this life is not wasted, that the years and the moments in between mean something. I pray that God saves me from myself and the world that surrounds me.
In this life we are to forgive. Forgive each other for not being what we needed each other to be. This includes ourselves. We need to know that we’ve always had the inner strength to get through anything life will throw at us without having to use other people as an excuse not to. We are BORN STRONG. Remember… As long as there is life, there is HOPE!
I am not perfect, but I do try my best. I may not be everything, but I’ll give you all I can. I might hurt you, but it will never be intended. I will love you and it will be intentionally unconditional. – ML Malta
IT IS ALSO EXTREMELY LIKELY I WILL NOT JUST SURVIVE TOMORROW BUT I WILL SUCCEED IN LIVING, I PERSEVERE IN THIS LIFE BECAUSE I AM DRIVEN BY A WILL GREATER THAN MY OWN, A DEEP SET DESIRE TO STAND WHEN CRUSHED. TO PUSH BACK THE HEAL OF THOSE WHO HAVE OPPRESSED ME – INCLUDING MYSELF. WHEN I AM AT WAR INSIDE I HAVE DECIDED I AM GOING TO WIN BEFORE MY EYES OPEN EACH DAY. THE BATTLE IN MY MIND WILL NEVER CONQUER MY SOUL, NOR WILL I EMPOWER OTHERS TO INFECT IT WITH THEIR INFERIORITY. – ML MALTA
REAL FRIEND’S KNOW THAT LIFE IS BUSY AND THAT THERE IS NO EXPECTATION TO PROVE YOUR FRIENDSHIP THROUGH UNNECESSARY GRAND GESTURES. HOWEVER, WE WILL GLADLY ACCEPT SMALL FAVOURS, A HUG, A TEXT OR A CUP OF COFFEE! EVEN THEN… WE AREN’T IN IT FOR WHAT WE CAN GET, BUT WHAT WE CAN GIVE. SOMETIMES IT’S NOTHING BUT LOVE FROM A DISTANCE. THAT’S FRIENDSHIP. – ML MALTA
Never allow yourself to treat people in the same manner they’ve victimised you. Don’t become like them, you are better than that. If someone lies about you – let your good nature prove them a liar. Never give your enemy ammunition. – ML Malta
We need to grow as individuals. Remaining stagnant is toxic to your life. Create a vision for your life that compels you to initiate long term change and cycle a growth mentality that gives you the life you truly desire. Make a plan, create a new ritual, then rinse and repeat it until you have a new pattern, one that you’ve chosen intentionally that pays the dividends you actually want. Don’t put it off. The moment we create change is now. – ML Malta
We often feel incredibly grieved during loss. Caught up in the notion that life will never be good again. It isn’t until we look back after time has healed our soul, that we, are able to see the life awaiting us. Transporting us into the dream. I was once so caught up in such a storm, I forgot to let it pass. I didn’t realise I stayed in it without purpose. I let it sweep me out to sea. Life isn’t easy, but if you never give up, the sun will always shine again, except this time… brighter. ML Malta “SOMETIMES WE HAVE TO LOSE EVERYTHING WE THOUGHT WE WANTED, TO RECEIVE THE LIFE WE HONESTLY HOPED FOR.” ML MALTA
WE TEACH ONE ANOTHER HOW WE TREAT THE WORLD AROUND US. THE IDEALS WE EXPECT SHOULD BE EQUALLY BE GIVEN. IN A WORLD WITHOUT HONOUR, BE HONOURABLE. IN A WORLD THAT LACKS INTEGRITY, DEVELOP SOME. IN A HOME WITHOUT LOVE, CREATE IT. IN A WORLD WITHOUT HOPE, BELIEVE THAT IT NEVER LEFT. – ML MALTA
Our thoughts guide our lives. Be mindful of your mind. Guard your heart and life by filtering the information you generate from within, but also from the external influences. Retain your power by being presently in control of everything that enters your mind and essentially your life. – ML Malta
Just because you think something – it doesn’t mean that it is true. Our thoughts are not always derived from a spirit of truth or wisdom. Guard your mind with your life, because your life and quality there of, depends on it. – ML Malta
The past is a place where lessons are learnt and the future is earned. The past gives us the present… learn from it, grow from it and find love because of it. Never allow your past to control your future. Be present in this moment. – Ⓒ ML Malta 2018
Your love is unconditional. You think upon me when the sun rises and sets. When the stars shine, your heart remains in mine. Every moment between belongs to me. Not one breath is breathed without exhaling me into existence. You strategically place me, even in the darkest corner so that when you stumble you have to find the light. Your love does not falter, nor does it contend. It is not self seeking or power hungry. The only power you seek is mine to share. You want only to stop the darkness. You hope the lost become found, above your own life, you seek me.
I loved you unconditionally… yet, for the world to love me, what eye can truly see? You show me, love me, and offer my love to the world. At the risk of life and the price of all that matters you bow before me, offering your life. You do not just pray, you speak to me and wait for me to answer. When I called out for you, you came and said Lord… “Here I am send me!” You have been obedient and trusted. You have given without repayment, sown through drought and watered those who needed to drink from me. Your life has fed the lost and given hope. Because of me you have transformed your life to represent unconditional love. I am unconditional love. Christ crucified is unconditional love. I am unconditionally yours.
You have a chance to do everything better than you have before. We are not defined or trapped by our past, nor is your future depicted by it. You create your future by the choices you make in each current moment. The present, is your gift. Those choices we seemingly assume to be mindless are creating the future, your future, before your very eyes. We need to be mindful and concious of the way we live out our day’s. Live in each moment purposefully, because you are the architect, designer and creator of this life you are living out.
Your future can be anything you desire it to be. The past is familiar and it is often repeated because of this familiarity we are drawn to it like a moth to a flame. Such as the same type of partner’s that end up breaking your heart. Familiar is not necessarily good, but fear stops us from seeking the new and we often settle back into old patterns and behaviors. We are habitually drawn to familiar things even though they can be negative. Because we have created fear around the idea of the unknown and unpredictably of a future that isn’t controlled, we tend to gravitate to the same men or women, or have trouble changing routines that are toxic. The familiar is modelled off your past, so if you are trying to change your direction stop following the same blueprints and recreate your life by proactively holding life’s pen and rewriting it. Embrace the new!
Starting setting high goals! Have expectations beyond your limiting thoughts and feelings. Leave the past like unturned soil. Stop digging it up! You cannot change what you did yesterday, but you can improve now! Make a deal with yourself to modify your thinking and to change your feelings. The actions will follow. Eventually your world will start to change. It will be possible for you to get excited about life. You will unlock opportunities and a whole new world will open its gates to you with open arms. New isn’t scary, staying the same is.
Take control of your thought life. Don’t own every feeling and thought that drops into your head, you can change and swap those for other constructive and kind thoughts. If you go to a shop for cake and it gives you coal you wouldn’t accept it, you deserve the best, you demand the best and you expect the best. So why do we accept less when it comes to ourselves and those vicious inner voices and critics? Why listen to the haters in our heads without challenging them? They can be challenged and they can be changed. We aren’t the product of our thoughts, but we are shaped by conscious thinking and the words thereof.
Do not dwell on the things and events of the past that have torn you down or limited your belief in life, love or yourself. Be better, do better every single day. Make changes within yourself and take back control of your life and give the world the version of yourself that is no longer afraid to breathe. Get beyond your self. Use your imagination to stir up thoughts and feelings that match your desires instead of your fears. Deny access to the enemy and dark energy that once resided. Take back ownership of your thought life, mind, body and soul.
Perceptions are versions of our individual truth. They are an accumulation of distorted images and sensory stimuli that create physiological, psychological and neurological responses to the world about us and the way we respond to it. Our memories and experiences are unique; they are based of an individual standpoint and mindset.
A single memory can trigger the way we interpret everything else because it may be a sensitivity we had not discovered about ourselves. Over time we stack them like bad chapters in decaying books. Being mindful and acknowledging the mind in its complexities, we may be able to see the simple world around us and how we shape it through our experiences.
We can change the way we interpret and fit the world around us. If we can reframe our past and file away those triggers so that we understand them, maybe we can find peace. Maybe, if we focus on the joy’s, rather than our fear and failures, we can build up rather than tear ourselves down. Maybe, in the darkness you can close your eyes and see yourself dancing without the noise and shine the light on your hope, strength and love.